Waist Shrinkage

My mother told me today that she noticed my waist shrinking. That is so exhilarating! But I don't want her noticing that. I guess it's inevitable though, I just have to work on really making them (my parents) believe that I haven't noticed. I blamed it on the fact that, "I'm still growing," hah. And I was wearing a different type of shirt than I normally do, so that could have been it. Besides, then I went on to binge SO MUCH FOOD, but I've promised myself that I will never-ever purge.


I feel so gross. :(


But I also went on a 21-kilometer bicycle ride, so that should have helped some. It's 16:30 right now, and I'm going to make up an excuse to get out of dinner because I've just eaten enough for me to last for about 3 weeks. Way to go, Flower.


Ana must be so disappointed in me. I'd bet the farm that she's angry as hell.


Man, I just want to be thin. That's all I want. If I'm thin, by problems will be gone. If I'm thin, he'll like me. That's what I'm going for. It's all for him.


Ana, I'm so, so, so sorry. Please forgive me. Please help me through this. Please help me create ways to distract myself. Please help me be strong! I need you now and forever, Ana. I'm dedicated to you, mind, heart, and soul. I'm willing and eager to follow you. I'll listen, I swear I will, but I just need you to talk to me. Do that, and I'll be eternally grateful.


I'll get thin or die trying.








Miss Madeline Fogg